Saturday 23 October 2010

My new life

life,, not as beautiful as they look.
indeed, if I become someone else, surely I would also say I am very pleasant life.
but it is only viewed from the outside only, if they look into it.
it did not want to be me this,
self full of secrets.

all my friends want to know sometimes I change it,
I switch them with other things so they do not know.
for some reason is hard to tell how the truth to my family but for the people who know very ordinary.

I was fairly easy to get something, anything I say would be on turn down,
but that's what makes me feel weird!
why must all, nothing is banned but in addition I also have to learn to understand the people around me for later I used to like it.
such as pocket money I have in less so I know how to save money like everyone else.
sometimes I understand it but, in addition I was also angry when you see those at the top of me.
now I want to start my new life,
understand what is around me and I learned to open (honest) to them all.
but I want them to ask me,
not with words of greeting from someone else because other people were not entirely correct according to reality.
-----------------------------welcome in the new world--------------------------------

Tuesday 1 June 2010

mimpi yg anehhhH!!!

s'mlam q g au knpa ?!
q brmimpi q enak bngdd,, prasaan yg pngen q kluarin pun tdi mlem q kluarin ,, ( pdhl q biasa_a g prnh ky gni ,, mngkin inh udh bataz max q )
detiikkk ..
meniittt ...
jam ...

detakan jantung mngikuti getaran wktu ,, q tak peduli apa pun yg ad di sekitar q ..
Suara lembut sang malam pun q tk bz mndengar ,, yg ad adlh rsa gelish yg enth knp q rsakn dgn bgtu keras ...
Bhkn sinar sang malam pun ,, tk mnyurutkn rsa gelish'q ..

suara tetes alunan air trus jatuh tiap detik mngikuti detakan jantung q yg berdetak ..

semakin keras n lama ..

apa ituh mngeluarkn smua rsa cpek yg slama inh ? Rsa ingin bbz ?
istrahat ? n bermain ?


q tak bza brhenti mnetezkn air mata inh ?!

s'akan q mau brteriak ,, berlari ..
sekuat tenaga dgn ap yg q lakukan ..
ap yg q krjakan ?!


truz akn kah trus sprti inhh ?!

akn kah mlam" q nnti akn sllu di iringi dgn tetesn air inh ?

Adakah s'orng yg mnghibur'q ??
Mmberikan q semangat ??
mnyanyangiku ?!

N mau menemni'q ?! huft >.<

Monday 5 April 2010

sahabat'q sllu ^_*

enth ap yg hruz q ktakan ,,
jujur q g bza bilng klo di hdpan q ad klian ,, pi di dlam hti q ,, ingin bngdd q ngmng s'swt am klian ..
Pi q orng_a g PD ky klian yg tnggl ngmng ajh ,, klo q mh orng_a sdkit trttp ..

q g bza lngsng ngmng aplgi klo orng it ad di dpan q ,, q lbih bz pke kata" ..

akhir" inh q emng sibuk bngd am urusan sklh ,, pi q jg pngen bza jlan breng agy am klian ..
ke tmpt yg mngkin bz ngumpl" breng am klian ky dlu ...
wlaupun q jarang n mlah g prnh kmpul klo sbtu ,, pi q pngen bngdd bz kumpul agy am klian ...

entah knp akhir" in rsa itu smkin mmbt q bngung ..

Jujur ,, q bkan_a g mo kumpl am klian ..
q takut bngdd !?!

q bda am klian ,, q sllu tkut untk brbwt yg q mau ..
q mau crita pi q jg takut ..'takut tntng ap yg nti akn trjdi ..

lbih dri ap pun ,, q jg pngn ktmu n kumpl am klian ,, pi .......
aknkah bza ???

q takut bngddd ,, q sush bt ngmng am klian ..
q binund ap yg hruz q ktkan am klian ..

klian brbda am q,, klo klian ky_a bza canda n jlan brng dgn rasa snng ,, pi q sdkit rasa takut ...
aq takut tntng bnyk hal" yg akn trjdi .....

skrng pun q mnuliz inh ,, q binund mo ngmng ap?
pdhl q pngen bngdd ngmng ap yg q rsakan ,, pi sush bngdd !
q takut ....

knnnpp?
knp rasa takut inh sllu dteng am q?
pdhl q jg pngen klian tau ,, tau mua yg ingin q ucpkn am klian ...:'(

q jg pngen klian tau q knp ? sdng ap ? dlm kondisi ap ?
q ingin klian tau ,, n q ingin q tau ap yg klian lkukan , knp n sdng ap?

pi klo qt gy brsma ,, ky_a q ndri yg g au ad mslh ap?n knp?
hnya klian yg au ,, q sdkit minder dgn hal it ,, trnyta hnya klian yg au ..
ap q tk pntaz tau ?
jika q ad hnya untk mlihat klian brcra ,, mndengrkn tnp tau mslh_a ..
bt ap q ad ?!
prcuma q ad jika q tk tau ap" ,, q di ibrtkn bintang yg hnya jdi pndngar n g bza bt solusi ...

pi in jg krn slh q sih ,, q g prnh bza ad di stiap klian sllu brsma ...
q sllu mnghindar ..
pi ,, pi q jg ingn brsma" dgn klian ...
pi q takut ,, q pnya rsa takut yg enth kpn bza q lwann ..
q udh mnc0ba brada dkat klian ,, pi trnyta ..
rsa tkut ituh kmbli lgi ,,, q bnund gmn cr q ngilngin rsa inh ?
q takut akn ap yg trnjdi slnjut_a jika q brcrita ,, q tkut .........
takut akn mua ituh ,,, :'(




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